bridesmaids

truth to be told; aku asyik edit je bridesmaid list aku hahah
sebab tak semua 'kawan' tu menyenangkan
tengokla nanti dah nak kawen macam mana
yang pasti bukan cousins lol
ngangah dengan adek boleh

medical school

Aku post ni sebab dah bengang sangat
Memang semua yang masuk medical school ni akan jadi selfish ea??
Nak berjaya sorang2
Toxic
sepatutnye inspire and motivate one another
tapi tak
buat orang lain rasa down
study dgn geng sndiri
ye la aku ni bukan pandai sgt
dulu aku pandai top student pun tak selfish and bongkak macam kau
kawan time nak senang je
apa jenis kawan camtu
gi mampus ah nak sangat berjaya sorang2 kan
from now on aku takkan take anyone seriously dah
korang boleh buat apa yang korang nak
dah penat nak terasa
kawan for benefit je buat apa

p/s: memang ada certain orang time dia bukak mulut je dah buat aku sakit hati sebab asyik nak tunjuk dia je study dia je hebat dalam semua benda ehh gi mampusssssssss

depression

I'm starting to think that I have no value whatsoever..no talent.. 

not worth it..no goodness in anything..

which means no purpose in life because cannot contribute to anybody or to anything in this world..

like what have I done or achieve in life so far..

It really seems so dark..

sampai rasa time makan pun hampir tersedak sebab tak boleh telan sebab nak nangis..

Astaghfirullah.. may Allah forgive us.. and He knows us best.. please give me more strength.. 

friends like sisters

I wish I have a bestfriend..a girl bestfriend..

like meredith with cristina..

What a Life

I've been wondering.. what have I done with my life so far..
since my birthday this year.. suddenly I thought hmm I'm already 23 years old.. and still haven't achieved anything in life..
I know if I tell anyone about it (others usually take it as a complaint) everyone would say different people different rezeki.. different blessings different life bla bla bla..
so in conclusion there's no one can just listen to my story.. without judging or saying anything about it..
i'm tired..i'm just so tired..
i don't care if you guys say my pain threshold is low or whatever go to hell.
I keep asking  myself why did I take this course..
so if anyone would ask my advice or opinion about how does it feel being a medical student..
I would say it was the most painful experience and the worst choice ever..
if only i have other options now, i would grab it..
if I'm beautiful and skinny and potentially can become a model i would hahahah
or if i have other talents..
like acting, or designing clothes.. or have lots of money to start a business hmm maybe becoming a wedding planner?

still i dont have any other options now.. i'm stuck..